colors of the sun

on my left mr right is jus perfect
on my right mr left me out
the guilt is jus pounding my hand ful of flesh inside my ribs
I feel ive done something terribly wrong in heaven
or was that hell
if wat i did was really that sinful...why am i still living?


this someone is a gem...not jus any gem.. like an african diamond
but then.. ive made that someone cry... for the first time.. it hurts me more than anything...
especially cos the person who ive hurt was not even at fault...
cos of my mistake..i caused heart ache...
i feel like i need to be shot...
but then.. i know i didnt do anythin wrong..but someoneelse is makin me feel like ive committed a murder...and i feel that i might have broken some of my own policies thinkin of dat..

i thought i'll be the only one crying for my mistake..but... someone else cries with me.. which jus shook me up so much dat i fergot abt my original guilt....

anyway... this was before i read a imp piece of email..the most worthwhile mail ive ever recieved in my life..uptil now..and i dont know i jus realised i have a lotta stuff to organise..this time its not my wardrobe or stuff in my room..but organise wat i want to do with my life..and how im goina get them...

i used to think..if u want things in life .it was liek sumthin like greed..and i mean but NOW..... its only human if u Want sumthing outta ure life.. i realised ive been mixed up abt things in life.. for once im gettin things to my head..cos of someone..i jus got like "nuclear atomic bombz" in my mind recently abt each issue or complication im facing in life rite now... and... it used to be like turmoil after turmoil.. dat i had no sense of direction or help watsoever..life was so dense I WAS LOST!but now..i feel like god sent me a guide..to my life rite now..step by step ..inch by inch..taking baby steps with this big hand to hold me when i fall...i feel treasured and special... now a smile jus erases all my wounds..fresh or old ..an assuring voice always givin me that strength i used to lack so much...

*god sent me an angel from heavens above*

Posted by Sshree at 2:52 PM