i MISS milo freez
well..pple i got sum time off today too to add sumore stuff...
ive been havin tonnes of relatives.. *invited and uninvited* pourin in my house for e past week.. kinda feels sumwat good.. i dun really know half maybe 3/4 of my relatives.. but still its kinda nice to see pple meet them and know how dey related or watever.. ive been havin alot of time to spend wit my gramma too.. she told me tonnes of stuff abt her life and how it used to be.. u noe*bonding*lol..yea.. my doggie "tommieII}(dun question e name)"been tied up e whole two weeks.. cos it seems e stray doggz been gettin killed and stuff.. but my dumb dog is whinnin and cryin all day long its so fukin annoyin lol.. yea and i actually saw dogs gettin killed.. dey use some hook kinda things to grab e dog by its mouth and pull it wit a wire.. and e blood was oozin all ova
den dey put an injection and kill it and throw it in a pile :( * thinks of doggie* i think im never lettin tommie out !!! its so cruel.. but it seems pple gettin affected wit dog bites eevrywhere..hummm.. im goina go karakudi..(yummmy food) my relatives came frm dere coupla days ago..
and BOY do they know how to cook.. got down recipes frm dem.. and plannin to go dere to visit dem soon :D...
and ive been puttin on weight too..(alot) but yea.. i dun care.. i have a stomach to feed.anyway i think enuff for today.. my hand hurts.
Posted by Sshree at 6:46 PM
I JUS saw my previous two entries.. haha and found out how stupid i was .when i actually like sumone they can think dat i was FAKE..
Posted by Sshree at 7:11 PM
confused
im in india.. dreadin each day..wat i thought was an escape of reality .. its not there nemore..
everything is sooo messed up..every plan gone wrong..my dad got "SICK"
and every plan of goin wherever exotic.. it only reaches to e hospital if u want EXOTIC..AND watelse..i saw a dead body goin to be cremated..went to dis temple.. dey had an elephant me got d blessings frm her/him... den.. i got to see HUNDREDS of peacocks on sum lost world kinda village,,anyway.. i miss bloggin.. my dad got heart pain a week after i got to india..
so basically my main part of my holiday got messed up.. woohoo!
-typed on sept 30
ive realised one thing .. im not matured enuff for a serious relationships..and its jus too complicating.. and e fact dat IM already complicatin on my own doesnt make e situation better..pple think im cheatin jus cos i didnt tell them how i felt earlier.. when i didnt even noe wat i was feelin how can i jeopardize my relationship for sum confused feelings(which im very capable of ). im jus reallly reallly agitated..upset..and MAD at e same time.. its like this... u go to a temple and u pray for 30 days..and by e end of e month u dun get ure wish granted u take it as e thing is fake?? watever..I CANT make my self feel a certain way.. if i feel somethin its who i am.. if im a bitch to u.. so be it. i dun live to satisfy u i live to satisfy myself.
Posted by Sshree at 10:26 PM
