colors of the sun

mental disorder

i actualy typed out a loooong looong post yesterday stupid blogger messed it .yyyyyyyyyyy!!!now i have to think back and type all out again

i miss my mom's and my patti's cooking

i went for this drama thing i recently got hooked up with.its wicked.totally hilarious things.wish i cud say more.i did on my loong post which got virtually destroyed.anyway ya e drama thing it was fun.im the naataamai's keep.wat the hell was i thinking sayin yes to this.
my reputation is goina go down the drain. prayin to god dat it doesnt do dat much damage. but wat the heck its acting.

he called.the other he.shyte!i think too many "he"s.well the paithiyam *nut* he .he called and i asked why he called and he was like do i need a reason to call n im like no..but u prolly were drunk dat u actually called or ure ego wuddnt have allowed dat.or either u forgot dat we werent supposed to be talking .blah.i missed him though.he has this hauntingly adorabble laugh which makes me go INSANE.i think he wooed me with dat stupid laugh.god i missed dat.im fooling myself in certain issues but i jus cant damn it admit it at times.

apparently my whole school friends know abt the modelling thing now.and i sound like a dumbass fool .hey shakthi.miss wacko.*smile* .now i know THREE kug/hans in my life. and i remember i was crazy abt dat name years ago dat i actually wanted to name one of my future kids wit dat name. i dont think i do anymore.realised too common. but yea it is a nice name.


CANT wait to watch HITCH movie.feelin kinda relaxed.LOVIN dat "Candy shop"track by 50 cent n olivia. *smiles* i always end up havin a conversation abt chocolates or candy at one point.i think i need chocolate to be sane.

reality check:TRaumatized with cars for sometime now.im not goina take information management course.im switching cuz its a biatch.i will have to be admitted at IMH *institute of mental health* if i did continue dat subject.im going to take it slow with my subjects cus i cant seem to handle it with 4 subjects within 3 months.not workin.ive been having a major mental break down for the past coupla weeks,dat i didnt even attend alotta lessons.but yea im clear now. jus need to have a cryoutloud moment soon.

oh yea im findin it better to type out my feelings these days than writing on my diary.especially cus my hands seem to respond better to typing .e fact dat pple i know and dont know are gettin my thoughts dont bother me.actually it kinda does but i dont care.have to cover up the essential details n i'll be okay.havin really hard time writing proper when ure emotions are runnin crazy.and two weeks after i cant even read what i wrote on the diary.damn i need to burn my older diaries.too much confidential info for anyone to find out. but then again its always kinda makes u stronger when u reminisce abt e harsher days.


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Posted by Sshree at 11:34 AM