colors of the sun

the baddest asset

i think my emotions are
dying day by day..
i can see im gettin
more and more
evil by the min...
whatever happened to miss nice
im so hopeless in love
that i fergot how it feels like ..
im jus gettin hurt now..
and it kinda feels gud in
some weird twisted sorta way.
but i know this is not me.
Fuck chandeliers of adoration
fuck the sparkles and the overrated valentines
fuck aniversaries and
Fuck e friggin feelings.
im sick sick sick sick of it.
i need to go party and
get drunk with my gurls.
but one thing for sure is dat
love is not fair.
we gotta deal wit it.
either it fucks u up or
u fuck it right back
u noe wat i mean...
why am i Waitin for sum lame asshole
who dont even value my affection?
Why shld I suffer cos of this stupid stuff?
this isnt nessessary.but you noe
if i get over someone dats the end of that.
thats wat im worried abt.
but i hate my feelings gettin tossed over
like a wave hit it or sumthin!
and if it gives me so much heartache
i shld jus forget it right?
i swear to god i still dont know wat love is.
maybe i wil never know.

i also realised i become evil
when someone hurts me.
i guess its my character to retaliate
when someone does that.
i jus cant stand the fact that they
hurt me .

im scared of people who try to get close to me

I need god .

Posted by Sshree at 5:24 PM