colors of the sun

dilemma

as usual. why ever would i write in here unless im happy sad or confused.. this time im jus Bored.

my love life prospects :if there is any..

a moslim
a convict
a geek
a happy go lucky

choices. more appropriate is that im stuck in between the dangly lines of alla the above. i feel like a mess.like always. i hope to meet a person who has my mind set so they can help me out.
its not that i can make a choice outta them its jus plain complicated. its jus the starting already theres lotta trouble. its like u want to be sumthing as a result frm evaluating ure past experiences? so im stuck with that to being genuine . basically shld i jus be a bitch and hurt the pple who hurt me. or jus turn things in a different way ( and the different way is EVEN more complicated) so i'll jus be adding more to my headache.


my school life :

I do Want to succeed careerwise .why the fuck u think im get worried all the time!AND i do Fuckin study! its jus that im a jinx .exams jus fuckin dont work for me.its like exams hate me! really theres a diff to when i dnt study sit for a damn exam and stare blank at the paper and jus close my eyes and write crap TO knowin wat the fuck is goin on and writin it out very fucking clearly and i still get a D!! Dun think ure too gud for anythin. cos dats when u gotta watch ure back rite



anger management: still workin on dat one..
salesperson defence:still paying more for somthin less


bahhhhhhhh im talkin to hari alott after saturday.. hes a pretty cool kid!!hes like the version of my bestfriend only the male version!!haha.. my sister giving me weird looks though :s what??wat am i doin wrong?


anyway - ive forgiven shivani..well i realised if i cud forgive anyone else. i cud always forgive my friend who i shared alotta things with..jus because she made a mistake dont mean i shld too.but I wont forget it..ever.. maybe i'll get cautioned a bit more frm now on .she sounded really happy though when i msged her. meh..U ve never heard of a friend disowning another friend rite?... dats why i had to forgive her.i hope to be a better person outta this. hopefully.

my dad came.and, went. WHOOOSH.*dat was the sound i heard him make *lol *doi not really.

my gud friend usha stayed over on sunday and she kinda revealed her scary dream abt my house to me.now i cant sleep at night.GREAT. another reason to add for my lack of sleep.

im jus whinin dun mind me.

what else.. i missed his Call!!and now i was hoping all day dat it wud be him calling.but it wasnt unfortunately.and yet he knows when i'll be out so he cud call??WAT the.. anyway i dont miss dat.. i didnt..miss dat..I jus dont!....

Posted by Sshree at 10:21 PM