realization
Lookin at my previous entries..i feel so embarrassed *turns red*
i sound soo out of control.
need a break in my life.
take things slow .
enjoy my finer things in life ..
i ought ta go for a spa weekend out. yea that wud be nice.
but to pple who read this:
im not a nutjob, i jus happen to have Really wacko moodswings 24/7.
.....
my mom called to ask me wat I wanted from india.heck.i jus want her home.
my birthday present this yr from my dad aint goina be a surprise. well this time im glad actualy
cos hes plannin to get me a PDA.
why wud i need a PDA?
i'll be most glad to get a laptop computer instead.Blah jus kiddin.
.but it wud be of more use to me than a PDA*blush*
i DIDNT tell that to him ofcourse and im not being a snobby lil biatch .
lets be practical.why waste good bucks !
a PDA wud be appropriate if im running 3 business at once with
alotta obligations to fulfill and alotta appointments to make!
im still in college why wud i need a PDA!?
make an appointment with my lecture.
I THINK NOT!:S
but it was sweet of him though to get me a pda ,
he said i wud like dat but the thing with mymom n dad is dey try so hard
to make it up to me by showering me with gifts to make me feel better
cos i dont see them dat often. Bleah.
ive been sufferin from anxiety attack from time to time these days
especially with talkin on the phone
oh dat reminds me got a call from this bozo *kikkles*
Got reminded of madagascar
anyway this stupid survey lady calls up and
bores me with stupid questions
lady:how do u feel abt the propostion to the resorts projects dat are being reviewed
by the prime minister ..
me:*stares in space*BLUH UH? the wadda?wats the question again?
*the woman was goin on at 0.000004 sec per word*
lady:*repeats question*
me: UGH...i dunno i guess its cool.
lady:Okay i'll move on to the next important question on wat spreads you use
me:*thinking its shes goina ask what kinda review prospects i have or sumthin*
lady:What kinda spread do u use on ure bread ?
me: !!!!!
me:Excuse me??
lady:butter?jam?margarine?penutbutter?
me:Waddafaq~ *No i didnt say dat was thinking dat!*
this jus shows i have to get outta the friggin house incase
GOofus'es like this one calls ever again.
bloody surveyors!
been stayin at home whole of yesterday and today
nowonder i thinkin too much
Posted by Sshree at 10:49 PM
when boredom hits..u resort to the ridiculous things
1. ur fave breakfast?pancakes..LOTS OF EM2. ur fave drink?iced tea,milo freeze3. place u Love 2 hang ouT?the beach..4. fave place at homE?in my room5. the 1 u LOVE?god , my mom and sum jackass6. wherE did u go Last sunday?BBQ/chalet7. the 1 u miss nOw?my mom8. what u usuaLLy do on tuesdays?School9. what time is it?4.25pm10. What language[s] u want 2 sPeak?francias ,espaniol11. why?its muy bueno and its c'est intéressant16. ur perfume?Cool water ,glow17. things u MusT bring with?cellphone,wallet,lipbalm/gloss,keys18. ur fave toy?grew outta toyz but i love anything with madagascar characters and spongebob ones19. ur Lotion?nivea20. whO do you usuaLLy talk bout Love to?my gurlfriends21. ur Pet?I WANT ONE !!:(22. ur fave Colour?orange,yellow,red,gold and hot pink23. ur gender?femme24. the mOst CoLourful thing?the skies at dawn or dusk25. ur fave thing u haVe?huh..i have too many to mentionbut wat i can think of now is my cellphone.26. ur a9e?1927. wHere do ya want 2 go abRoad?Canaduh,europe,rio ,hawaii and new zealand28. coffee or tea?coffee29. bLack or wHite?black30. i repeat, bLack or wHite!erm,..okay white?
Posted by Sshree at 4:25 PM
the baddest asset
i think my emotions are
dying day by day..
i can see im gettin
more and more
evil by the min...
whatever happened to miss nice
im so hopeless in love
that i fergot how it feels like ..
im jus gettin hurt now..
and it kinda feels gud in
some weird twisted sorta way.
but i know this is not me.
Fuck chandeliers of adoration
fuck the sparkles and the overrated valentines
fuck aniversaries and
Fuck e friggin feelings.
im sick sick sick sick of it.
i need to go party and
get drunk with my gurls.
but one thing for sure is dat
love is not fair.
we gotta deal wit it.
either it fucks u up or
u fuck it right back
u noe wat i mean...
why am i Waitin for sum lame asshole
who dont even value my affection?
Why shld I suffer cos of this stupid stuff?
this isnt nessessary.but you noe
if i get over someone dats the end of that.
thats wat im worried abt.
but i hate my feelings gettin tossed over
like a wave hit it or sumthin!
and if it gives me so much heartache
i shld jus forget it right?
i swear to god i still dont know wat love is.
maybe i wil never know.
i also realised i become evil
when someone hurts me.
i guess its my character to retaliate
when someone does that.
i jus cant stand the fact that they
hurt me .
im scared of people who try to get close to me
I need god .
Posted by Sshree at 5:24 PM
madagascar.im the Number #1 fan for dat movie.i understand it.it completes me.*looney mode*
ITS FABULOUSTATIC!!!i mean SERIOUSLY i really REALLY WAS the loudest in the theatre!i laughed soo hard i have a mean tummy ache now.its FUNNY AS ell.Im SO so SO goina get the dvd when its out!What wud i do without movies like this!.I knew i was goina love it.AND I did.THERE.jus vomitin my estatic enjoyment!Everyone who loves to laugh should go for this movie.Especially if your a kid at heart :)
Posted by Sshree at 3:18 AM
Monster-in-law
POSTED ON MAY 26th :jennifer lopez looks super gorgeous in this movie too.
MIcheal vartan.DAYUm..now i know why those two goofs were gaga over him.
it was a the best chick flick i ever saw i guess.
and guys whoeevr loves cat fights wud love this one.
and when they say Monster in law .she really was a monster in law.
very hilarious.kinda made me think i'd be prolly be like dat in 5 to 7 yrs from now..
stuck with a monster in law??.....
SHIt lol.but seriously made me feel gud after i was feelin reallly down.
and i also realised something..
especially when i was talkin to one of my gud friends ..
he jus inspired me...
im in love with someone (NOT THE SAME PERSON) even if he likes it or not ...
so i cant change the way i feel jus cos he dont feel the same way dat i do rite...
so im goina be like this!
dats a gud thing!!
*NODS head*YEAP!
i feel like jus listenin to music and relaxin in a scented ,candle lit room rite now and be myself and with my thoughts. so adiyoz
EDITED MAY 28TH: OH DEAR! im not in love with my gud friend ! dats a different person and the person who inspired me is a different person.I shld stop using "him" to refer !lol confusion confusion confusion
Posted by Sshree at 1:27 PM
bloated
yeap.. ive put on two inches more of fats.. ugh..but its ridiculous..im the same weight but my proportions seem to change all the time.arghhhhhh
today was funny.me and the gurlie were at e swwiming complex and got hit on by bloody friggin 12 yr olds and 16 yr olds..its pathetic..its PATHETIC pathetic!and ..
WHILE commin back home..
well my friend pointed out to me..
this guy .. WHO looked LIKE THE exact..well not exactly..but who really looked like him at an angle..goina do a prank with dis one with him haha...i jus wish things wud be diff ...with him and me...i wish it didnt have to be this complicatedbut thenlife isnt worth living if it wasnt interesting enuffand complications make things interesting..so i guess its still all for the best..
'you give meaning to my life..really...addai..i miss you ...
Posted by Sshree at 12:32 AM
zombie mode
in the dazed zombie mode.
rained cats and dogs early mornin.
gurl aqquaintance came over yesterday night.
whole of yesterday had a long gurly talk.
was bitchin abt gurls frm my secondary school.
felt good abt it.
cos i never did dat when everyone else was bitchin abt me,
its my turn now baby!
set for next yr to canuckland.
cant wait to run away.
goina paint room in wacky colors on friday.
asked some gurl friends to come over to help out.
goina throw sum junk from my room.
buy new things to put in.
realised if im goin away why do i need to change room?
but still goina change it i guess.
dont feel like talkin to anyone rite now.mood out.
talked alotta things i shldnt have dug up in my brains.
somethings that needed talking and some others to be avoided.
did i mention i love my new sofa?-3.24 pm
....................
Posted by Sshree at 3:24 PM
what planet r u from?
What Planet Are You From?
Posted by Sshree at 12:13 PM
my long lost
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MAXVALUE 200;my oracle class codes..im in class right now and im blogging.*evil looks*Scandalous eh :P gagaga.. yesterday night i talked to my twin who lives in melbourne.when i say Twin,shes SO like me in character and personality and the issues she deals wit are so similiar to mine..she gave me a call..and we talked for hours.i normally HATE long conversations on the phone unless they are interesting..i get bored if i lose my interest in the conversation and even more to add is dat i rarely talk to my gurlfriends on e phone for more than 15 mins.
i interact better with them face to face..anyway..shes super cool and shes like someone i confide in ...and im SO SO glad to have known her.it feels so much better when u noe ure not alone when it comes to problems and stuff.but ofcourse although she lives a different life but i can still trust her to give me a sane perspective on my issues.i so need to meet her!
come to think of it...
i meet more interesting pple on the internet than in real life.
especially because u get to choose who u want to talk to on the internet
and even if u dun "click" *no pun intended*
with someone u can tell them easily on the internet,
but u cant do dat in real life.
they tend to take it personal when you say u cant "click" with them.
alotta people think internet friendships are a joke-well i beg to differ.
my internet aqquaintances have helped me more in dealing with my problems
than my real friends put to gether.for one i don trust many of my real life friends.
they are not really honest with me as i am to them*not all*.im okay with that.
and i also noticed dat ive become very conscious abt trying to be perfect.
and i dont knw when i started feeling dat way.i dun think ive been like that in the past.
what is Wrong with me!
Posted by Sshree at 11:32 AM
pAurnami
yesterday was Breathtakingly beautiful
the beach-the full moon-a whole group of wonderful ppl minus some-andwhole lota steaming barbaque'd food! yesterday was fabulous. so sad most of my cuties cuddnt stay longer..ahhh..but i think i really stuffed my self with chicken satays yesterday..i lost count to how many.i did try my skills..at bbq'in but erm..the chicken suffered a horrendous fate.hehe..i burned em.it ended up tasting like biscuits and my goofy friends actually ate em!hahaha.. even I spitted em out..ahhh i feel the love lol. anyway.. the only one thing dat was missing yesterday was him.kept thinking the whole time i was there.haha usual me.anyway...i made a few friends yesterday. some kutty friends and some not so.
but it was really fun..the marshmellows tasted so good .everyone loved it.shldda bought two packets.i was being worried the whole time i was there too.for various reasons.my moodswings kicked in as well to make things worse.but most of all i saw the Dreadful face ..THE last FACE i wanted to see dat day! that gud for nothing kudikaaran!he had the nerve to say hi to me too!bloody bitch! sorry abt dat. anyhoo.. i stayed over yesterday due to overwhelming tempations and persuations..and not to mention i have a BIG ache on my legs and arms cos i slept the wrong side and my mom's arm aches commin to me too!! :( poor dear she musta really been in pain all this while... and oh yea..i Fell yesterday into this stupid drain.yes.haha!*rolls eyes* the bbq pit was near this drain i totally didnt see it..and my left leg went WHOOP inside.and எனோட காலு ரொம்ப வலிக்குது!!!!UFF.. oh ya .MY sofa is HERE!!:D *went to take a pic*
doesnt look dat great in pics..but it looks sooo damn good in real!
Posted by Sshree at 5:21 PM
life is a rollercoaster u jus gotta ride it
i think im hanging upside down above 500 metres abve ground with my rollercoaster stuck in the middle of tracks.im not really finding any thrill in that,
jus freakin the hell out if my seatbelts are gettin loose.whoohoo.
i wanna runaway from here.?
bite thru sugz.. jus one more year...jus one more.and then its HALLELUJAh!
i was cleaning out my room jus now and
i noticed a letter i wrote to someone i never got to post.
and i have like tonns of letters like that i end up writing
but never did post..and i jus thought of a poem ..
in all the dirt and dusty glory
with watery drops
no i jus got somethin in my eye
i found my 10 paged heartfelt story
that of my scented pen
ended it with a bite on my lip
shall i pass thou?
glisten across the page
tsk even if my ink fades
through a snail or a dove
BLAH!! forget it.. i dont think im gettin good at this..
WHOOHOO we're gettin a new sofa we already ordered it a month ago!!!
Its soo comfy!!! unlike my current one.ugh!! I cant wait to get rid of dat stupid thing
..its so darn old.ITS FRiggin bluish weirdo red color..
i dun even noe which is the original color the blue or the red.
anyway THE NEW one is soooo gorgeous it looks like its off sum arabian palace kinda furniture...okay i maybe exageratin a lil. but the color is brown with dark yellowish..
it kinda matches wit my wall color too..ahhhh..
maybe something POSITIVE will come outa this new sofa..
and the two seater of my old sofa is goin in my room.
*i still hate the stupid sofa but now i can have a chilling area in my room*
oOOoooHH YEAA...
Posted by Sshree at 3:55 PM
trip to the chocolate factory
im a bad example to other lil kids
note dat im one myself
i miss god
did i sound right with thaT??
im missing alot of things lately
my earrings,
my morning class ..which im deeply regreting these days n thats a big deal
my mom
my Daddy'o
my cellphone...i kinda dropped it 35 times in the past two month
and im begining to really think im turning into a zombie day by day.
i think only thing dat Keeps me sane is blogging at the current moment
im findin it a nuisance when theres a birthday party i have to attend, a function to go, meeting up with friends..i jus dont wana see anyone these days ..
dont wanna Bump into anyone I know by accident,
i kinda like it this way, saves a whole lotta emotions and feelings
gettin punched and spitted on.
keep listenin to all these sappy sad love songs
my fav color of the moment-Black
i think i'll hit the library
Posted by Sshree at 5:43 PM
theres so much more to me u havent see
gagaga i jus realised ive typed alot for the past few days...hmmm too much bottled up i guESS...maybe i shld jus post my pathetic poems instead of 3 paragraph essays...hmmm...NAH.. i'll jus type away.. it will be a good read for me after 10 yrs..if im alivei rented " hotchick" movie yesterday.yea i realise im a bit late in catching good movies the point is..like all of the chickflick fanatics i too thought it was mindblowingly hilarious.rob Schneider.haha..anyways..wat else..*thinking wat to filter out when i type in here* *and thinking wat to type other than that!* BLAH..*stares*
shreya ghosalthis woman can REALLY sing.. its so captivating.i think wats really attractive abt her voice is dat it oozes feminity.and its like sum lullaby when she sings..im listening to this particular song *சாமி கிட்ட ொசல்லிபுட்ெடன் உன்ன நெஞ்ஜில் வசுகிடெ்டன ்* imagining myself and mr unknown..in some typical tamil movie duet love scene..OH yea dat reminds me .My dad knows somehow THAT im dreamy and that i sing and dance when noone is arnd and when im goddamn happy!shit yea..now u noe I do.. dats not the POINT..neway this one time me my sis and my dad were in a conversation ..we were going on about if People are actually THAT dreamy to imagine wild and crazy things..like singing and dancing when u see nature and watever rite?im thinking in my head *yeap dats soo great innit..like for real like in vancouver ,canada and ireland..new zealand...lalalala...**WHO IN THE SANE WORLD wud think THAT *said..my SISTER!!shes like THE most UNIMAGINATIVE person in the world.. IM jus stating a fact i know after all these years i spent with her..ever SINCE BIRTH! but thats how different we are.shes north and im south.SO anyway..MY DAD GOES "ure sister does dat All the time!" i stare back..!!I MEAN HOW DO U KNOW DAT man!!! dats MY DARKEST secret..(well not anymore i guess),..IM not mad..im jus a bit um... imaginative.. which is a good thing in a creative kinda way.GOD BLESS dreamers!
Posted by Sshree at 4:50 PM
got noin
i got nothin to say.jus dat my life needs somekinda upgrade soon.in a year or two i jus wanna be somewhere else.. anywhere but here..its better than being some dependant moron dat i am right now.i hate this.i wanna get my own bread i wanna get my own dough! its soo hard with my school in the way. and i So wanna live on my own.well yea im livin on my own now.but its not the same when u pay for your own things.it feels so much better if i make my own money !but sugz why is ure life such a drag!?bah...
i met up with my primary school friend yesterday.whoa..10 or 11 friggin long years...im seein her after 11 yrs..and she still is the same.AND GUESS WAT?!she remembers me???:O like wtf Rite? hahaha most pple dont recognize me anymore...but yea.. it was nice seeing her.i didnt really talk much with her.. comming to think of it my primary school days and secondary school days..wasnt all that memorable..but yea.. past is past... :) it was nice.. oh u noe wats the saddest thing? i fergot her name?:S and i got her numbr.. but i didnt wana ask her name cos it wud be soo rude..:S:S shiat..lol
oh i feel broke...
theres a chalet wit bbq commin up this week end..post production party ...im lookin forward to it..sighhhh..
Posted by Sshree at 12:06 PM
Ambitions through the ladder
S
omethin for the ladies... Find a guy: - >>who calls you beautiful instead of hot
- who calls you back when you hang up on him
- who will stay awake just to watch you sleep
- Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead
- who wants to show you off to the world when
- you are in your sweats
- who holds your hand in front of his friends
- who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on
- Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you
- of how much he cares about you and how lucky
- he is to have you
- Wait forthe one who turns to his friends and
- says, "...that's her.
and for you GUYS...
Find a girl: - >>who calls you baby instead of hot or sexy
- who can't stand it when you hang up on her
- who would sit there for hours looking into your
- eyes
- who doesn't care what you look like, but what's
- inside counts the most
- Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and
- kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips
- who wants to be with you in public
- Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder
- of your happiness and joy
- who makes you smile just by knowing she loves
- you back
- Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in
- public and she still is in view of her friends while
- she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one
- for me, for always"
Yesterday i had an online conversation with one friend of mine.. he has some really big dreams and ambitions,he said he wanted to get two or possibly three bachelors and get to med school!!! ive never been more inspired ,I seriously want to get at least two bachelors and be a MBA scholar..i have great big big dreams..and mostly all my friends dont aim that high..and they have been saying that I can Never do three bachelors and gettin done with one already is a big shit.I hate pple like that!Why cant someone have really big ambitions and try to achieve them?Sure im not that good in studies on a monotonous period right now.But who are You to tell me how far i can go and not go in life?Even I Dont know dat ,how do u Think u possibly know my limits?!!I always feel like SMACking them whenever someone says something dat brings down my selfesteem. IF a person thinks he/or she has a possiblity in gettin to High places instead of supporting them all you can give is DEgrading?Your limitations doesnt equalise to mIne!!the next time any jack ass comes and gives me the "OH u cant even DREAM of going there?!" OH ure goina see the hell in me!especially in school i get all this negative remarks... feel like punching their faces...they ask me wat im goina do after i finish my schooling..and when i do give an honest answer they give dat lecture..and i jus have to shutup..next time theres no shuttin up.. I Wud be proud if u did well in life!!!!!i mean im ure Friend dont you want to see me doing well aswell??People are selfish. No arguements there.and that Disgusts me.i hate myself when im being petty abt certain things.i know u totally cant Avoid selfishness cos that is part of being a human.but theres no rule u cant stop tryin to be selfish rite?...theres another thing why pple are selfish. its like an infection.When one person behaves in dat way towards you ,you take it dat thats ure valid reason to be selfish aswell.im guilty of this too at times.But then when i think abt the issues dat i get selfish over is really silly.and when we think abt what makes us feel that way is jus insecurity!! im trying not to be self absorbed these days. I think everyone should have big dreams!! if You cant then atleast dont tell others not to !
Posted by Sshree at 11:31 AM
simple truth
patriK e star-this starfish shld have been born in our world instead of an animated underwater cartoon character.....
i realised somethin really great today..teh Only thing i can get anytime i want is Chocolates and thats a big thing in my life.getting wat i want.:) so im pretty happy i can get chocolates any time i want
patriK e star-this is shld be born in our world instead of an animated underwater cartoon character.....
i also had another positive thought..while walking into my room today. the secret to finding success in life ..is jus to never stop trying..isnt dat wonderful?..i mean trying countless times to be successful is already a success on its own.. so instead of looking at the number of times i failed..i cud always look at it as being number of times nearer to being successful .. Man lovin all the good thoughts ...
my new semester started and Everyone is having a opinion on whether or not im
switching my course...except me!im such a fickle minded person it sickens me.i hate decisions infact i fear them..but unfortunately life IS about making choices.i probably shld get over dat fear soon.
ever since i found out there arent many things i can change in life..i stopped tryina make changes/choices
and ofcourse i think my love life is finnaly gettin back at me.....i THink he rejected me..in e last phone convo..not having peaceful state of mind..maybe im jus in love with being in love..? no..no.. dat wuddnt be it.. im still goina think of him. jus cause he cant return my feelings dun mean I have to let of mine!?!and besides..i think i thought of him way too much to think of anyone else right now :( stupid typical tamil me!
Posted by Sshree at 7:49 PM
contacts
hehe.. not having met new affiliations ..but gettin new contact lenses!! hahaha im so retarded at times i amuse myself.. well ya got em.. y? cos i broke my specs for the second time.. the first time i sat on it. (No !! im not that heavy ..jus dat the specs were too fragile!:P) and the second time i was walkin and tripped and it fell and i stepped on em. i got so pissed dat i got e contacts.. blah..im SUch a clutz. i think im really really clumsy to the point i dun even care if its embarrassing anymore. i jus pray every time i trip dat im still alive and dun hurt myself.
have u ever wondered how ure life wud be if it was flipped over ?meaning.. every scenario u face each day having a diff twist.. i wish i had a split life.. having more than one option to choose in life.dat would be so interesting ..but then.. the stress wud also double.. argh...maybe not!
another brain blast.PFFT!
im being pushed under conditions dat i have to talk to people who i kinda despise.i hate it when dat happens. when i know i dont like to associate with certain pple.i jus walk away..but lately ive been forced to talk and "LAUGh" with them.its soo annoying.why do i have to pretend to like someone jus cos they are friends with mY friends.its buuullshit..
Im droolin over dis particular hottie.
my wormie..
D-A-Y-UM baby !!!!!
thats wat i call fine as HELL!!
Posted by Sshree at 8:19 PM
schweety pie
schweety pie also known as pee mandai.HAHAHAHA.. its still so damn cute.. .dats what one of my gurlies say all the time and i crack up.pee mandai *shit head in tamil* !!i was out from afternoon till night..hangin with my youngin kakkiz! Super cute and im lovin every time i hang out with them. eevryone at uthayam production miss the fun times and rehearsals. i cant wait for another production !! the only thing i can smile abt these days!!we went to play pool today.met up with my schweeties ;jalra,kelavi, nutty one*vitz*,jeevz ,viki boi,ragu n sentil ..i was whoopin the younginz ass at pool..actually i really think i was lucky today.even though i cuddnt win one single game.. i did have sum pretty impressive shots;) okay sorry i'll shudup :PI MISS him so bloody much.hes working too these days.. and studyin at the same time.dun think he gotz time .. he was kinda whinin abt it e last time i talked to him.i think this is it.the end of the line. i cant look at anyone else.i cant even imagine anyone else anymore.i swear.i feel so helpless.maybe i shld pack my backs and runn away to him.nahhhh. crap im so embarrassed abt myself of my corniness. i miss my mom's food.its gettin to me.shld i call her back leavin all my ego and stubborness?...damnnn im being raided by a swarm of mosquitoes..me going back to listen to sad love songs.. im sound like sum character ripped outta a tamil movie. EVEN he SAYS dat abt me!இதயத்தை கானவில்லை அதூ ொதலைந்தும் நான் ேதடவில்்ைல ...Bah CANT get dat song outta my mind..falling angels
the morning grins at the dew of dawn
heavens jus seemed to have opened their doors
my darling petals and rose of thorns
jus keeps pricking on the darkest nights
a battalion of angels came for the rescue
and the petals smiling thru her pain
dare not see my dark desert
cause the aching seems to go for long
the golden angels shined at me all day
but only at night does the rose buds dew..
Edited to add:
http://artisticsquabbles.blogspot.comThats my other blog.
Posted by Sshree at 12:04 AM
05.05.05
Today's date is so fabulous isnt it?..hehe other than that i dun think anythin interesting happened today. although i have alot to say abt wat happened on Tuesday which was exactly two days ago. date:03-05-05 i went to east coast park with revz..MISSed her bloody hell so much. she came ova my place and got off frm there,took e bus frm yio chu kang..e lonnng ride.. talked, yakked and listened to that raa raa song for the hundredth time.. talked abt old times. flash backs on the singapore youth fest incidents...shes one of the friends i have for YEARS..and i met her EXACTLY on the first day of secondary school. she was the first person i ever talked to in secondary ..so its sumthing special.shes seen my downfalls to my successes...love her alot. anyways we have the Ultimate snegithiye kinda friendship rite? hahah infact we watch dat movie together countless times. sang the songs countless times.. yes we are drama queens in dat sense.but its jus fun. anyways we reached east coast arnd 4+ pm.. rented two bikes for like 2 hrs... cycled until our butts and legs were sore.. it was really fun..the one of e memorable days in my life. yesterday was even more hilarious 04-05-05 i was at home until 2 pm den left for school... came back frm sch arnd 6..den made rapid plans with this gurl i made friends with at the modelling thing.. met her in a rush ..had a few drinks in orchard. called my dearest friend des join us. dats cos i wanted to intro her to him. cos both of em love TENNIS. *am i the only person not into tennis?* anyways. he came arnd 11 pm.. and out the blue the word clubbin came on. and we were standing outside some clubs few mins after. by this time des's couzin was also dere.*hes cute btw* :) and why do i say some clubs?* we were switchin between clubs figuring out which one to go, eventually dey decided to crash thiS particular club GOD knows wats the name of dat club *and mind u. iwasnt dressed at all for partyin.i looked like sum ghetto chic not bothered abt anythin kinda attitude* not to mention dat club we ended up goin to was Filled with AH bengs and all chinese pple.and white pple who were into techno.YUCK.i swear i was the only brown chic dere. im blabberin..SO ya.. GUESS wat music they played at that club.TECHNo. YES u did see right TECHNO.i swear i DONT GET TECHNO.evar!! its the most horrible thing i eva heard.. i was stuck there for 2 hrs!!! DAMN.. the things i do for my darling friends. nonetheless my friends happened to enjoy it everymuch. id idnt wanna ruin it for them, so i had a coupla more gulps of vodka ribena and vodka cranberry and i was set to jus go wacko. and i realised its not hard to dance to techno..u jus mix up hiphop moves to a faster beat and u get hIp-NO .BLAH.... i still hate it.finally i got really piss high.. my friend is a real sweethart ..desmond.. cos hes jus too sweet for words. a real gentleman! cos of them i didnt mind techno music at all.
Posted by Sshree at 7:34 PM
This uncle who was standin dere god knows doin wat..but this pic was after the whole show ended.the props and everything got cleared within less than an hr.bravo to the production crew
Posted by Sshree at 5:59 PM
another pic of UCC building
Posted by Sshree at 5:58 PM
the figurine outside the UCC
Posted by Sshree at 5:57 PM
one of my co-acting friends mysteriously took this picture when i gave her to look after my phone..nonetheless i love her for it. this was a pre dry run before the actual show was abt to start. FYI- the show was a success.
Posted by Sshree at 5:57 PM
mood swings
Everyone jus SEEms to know when im not in a good mood.dats when im dead serious.my classes start tomorrow and my dumb school did send me an email of my timetable .i never got it prolly cos it came under my junk and got deleted.whoohoo.i went to visit gay'3s mom at the hospital two days in a row.yesterday she was really sick.i felt horrible jus lookin at her!
im not being over dramatic.but she seriously reminded me of my mother.she had that pleasant face ,dat angelic face . i guess dats what took me really down when i saw her lying there in pain .when we visited ,me, sombu aka deepz,vitz and jeevz ..she barely cud open her eyes ,i held her hand for sometime and i felt dat she was feeling gud for dat.we went there again today and i heard dat she walked a bit and dat really was a pleasant surprise especially when i KNEW my dear god wuddnt have let me down ever.we went and saw her talking, sitting up straight,laughing! That was definetly a wonderful sight!poor gay3 already been thru so much.i hope everything is okay with her family.we bought her mom a card and we talked to her for sum time.made her laugh. it really feels great to make someone smile.dats also a reason why i have a great respect for pple who are cheery by nature. anyways i hope she continues to feel better ! another thing is dat ive always had a thing for hospitals .. u can either look at it in a dark scary place or a really happy and cheerful place. cos thats where people are born and die. that shld be a place of really great importance right. but ofcourse i never feel dat good unless im visiting someone who is delivering a baby or recovering from an illness. wat i saw these two days i visited the hospital was dat theres really alot they can do to make someone whos sick feel better.got me thinking dat I SHLD do sumthing abt dat.since i DO love making people feel good..why shldnt i take up the initiative to get it down subsequently...
my sister cooked today.havent cooked in AGES really.i shld start cooking for my wallet sake.and also for my tongue sake.
i called and talked to him yesterday night for like 2 hrs.Man am i rejuvinated.i laughed so much.and dat laugh was really genuine.nobody makes me feel like that .i know dat for a fact.he knows we belong together.but hes the type who is anything but being melodramatic.me on the other hand,i live for that.personally i feel that this will work out if it was meant to be.we talk as friends.deep inside i jus know its more than that .im pretty sure he knows that too.
But he Never never admits it. he said he was glad i called him and that it was nice to hear my voice.i didnt expect him to say dat.but i was glowing inside when he did.I told him i jus called cos i was wonderin wat he'd been up to lately.*giving him e reason to why i called* he said he didnt ask for a reason. i jus ..stammered and said i had to tell him before he asked.
BUT i cant POSSIBLY say I MISSED HIM SO damn much dat i called now can i?i cud..but he'd prolly laugh and say u dont know wat ure talking abt..so im saving my feelings frm gettin hurt i guess.
i watched MILLIONDOLLARBABY finally..and..cried...loved it..kinda like a more sentimental twist to dat of e movie Girlfight ..nonetheless i love movies like that.kinda motivates me dat theres hella lot a girl can do in this male dominated world.the alpha males can relax.im not in for an arguement.
Posted by Sshree at 12:52 AM
learning
another rant where i vomit out all the feelings bottled up half way here and half way there.yeap thats wat im goina do.i realised i never talk to Any one soul abt all of my problems.not that i think they are important.most of the time im avoiding them.running away.taking the easy way out as they say.but only a temperory solution.but Ive never been able to Solve any of my problems.i do try.its not that i dont.im jus too much of an emotional person.i put up a persona that im really strong with matters of the heart .but really im not im jus too soft and very unstable .i really wonder who wud love me for that. my weird self.i hear girls telling me my guy loves me for being me and watever.i jus dont see dat anywhere in any point of my life.gets me depressed.i really feel sick and my tears jus right up to my eye lids.too bad u had to read abt my corny feelings.and no its not that time of the month.and its not that i have good looks or anything.jus feel dat my personality is like crap maybe.why isst so hard to be ureself! DAT EXclamation was on purpose.
my drama show was on the april30th.my first ever drama performance.Loved the stage off liek hell.it was HUGE .IT WAS magestic.and it was perfect felt right at home *i guess i already mentioned dat in my previous post*everyone said i did well with my character.but i felt that satisfaction jus wasnt there.that guy i had a crush on was BEin a JACKASS.wat do u noe.hes a gemini!strongly believe in astrology and things.
Whatever.i want to go the beach i think thats wat i will do later today.
my drama friends are the gems i found so far in friends.they each have a classic character which was soo refreshing to see.not the typical kinda people u wud mingle arnd with.Fantastic group.hope to work with them in the near future.
Posted by Sshree at 12:55 AM
